I find time here, Really, I have to say, Its been one hell of a Trip so Far, You people may be tired of reading these things, they're different than my Weekly letters I tell my Parents because I don't tell them exactly what mentally is going on.

to let you all Know At this point I don't Give a Damn if anyone hates me, If anyone is mad at me, I have no beef with anyone, I'm done trying to please people, I'm who I am, If you don't like it Go to Hell. People I'm helping them, Thats all, if I've deserted anyone? Well maybe if some of my Friends didn't Desert me already I wouldn't of had to leave to Grow up.

I'm following my Heart, Taking a Stand, Grabbing my Life and Pushing forward, No one... Mark my Words NO one will stop me from this, I'm sick and tired of people telling me what I need to do, to tell me to stop justifying my life. I've Justified Nothing! I've been Stupid I've done things I've regretted sure, but Thats too damn bad I can't change time To fix things, I'll take this Waste land that used to be my life and Create something of it, Thats what I'm doing.

Starting from Scratch, No one helping me do what I needed to do, I felt like I was just using others as a Crutch, To feel like I had a supported life, That I was on Solid Ground, But No... I wasn't, Hell I didn't realize how Messed up I was.

All I needed to do Was pull up my socks and get to Work. Damn I was wasting away doing absolutely nothing with myself. Just wasting time, I was sick and tired of it. When I'm home I need to get this Crap together I'm tired of playing with scissors and cutting around the point I guess you can say.

I'll tell you all now I feel different, Not sure what, But I'm telling you I'm not conforming, if I piss you off? I may appologize but the chances of me Caring about what people think of me, pretty much are zero, Divided by Zero.

Have fun All of you.
Peace.